I do this a little differently, So I don't know if any of you guys have any bad thoughts about this business of death and all this, Its not a problem. But there are possibly people in here who if you were aware of the actual truth of the situation you might be able to find comfort in it. Don't let your heart be troubled. Now this remember this is a guy who know and he says its far better, I'm starting to believe it might be. Some people may become nervous. Yes were gonna miss him, some people are going to miss him infinitely, painfully. But if you understand and know the truth about where he is and what he's doing and who he's with and what its like, and what they think of him where he is, hopefully I can give you out of this a little comfort that he actually is in a better place. And I'm not worried about going there at all.

Now another thing we have to look at is good and evil, Or what he's concerned with people telling whether something is good or evil now it seems like it should be real easy to tell doesn't it. They um think they can tell something that's good from something that's evil and it's clear they can't. What happened to them when they ate off that tree there was two times it said God knows if you eat off this tree your eyes will be opened and it says you'll know good and evil now we got understand whatever this was as far as God's concerned it's the same thing as dying. There's a real important word and it's the word to know it says when you you either that tree your eyes will be open and you'll know good and evil well that sounds like you know I heard one guy say that's dumb because all the time they knew good so the only thing they got out of it was to know evil they'd have been better off to just no good and not know evil but that's not really what happened when I look up the word to know it's this word Yodas and it means to know and it says properly to ascertain by seeing, To to know to learn to know to perceive to discriminate to distinguish to know by experience now here's here's the magic word to know by seeing. And to know means to ascertain by seeing now what you have to understand that's a real important word that means you're going to look at something and determine by what you see or what you think or what you feel or what you experience you're going to determine if something's good or bad or not and I don't know if you can tell but people do not do that very well. Okay now what is happening is the man had some kind of part of some part of his consciousness became activated where he thinks he can look at something and tell if it's right or wrong and if you understand my meaning when I said God got done and he said he was done he said it's finished it was very good he did not put that capability in the man. He got done and the man did not have that capability and he said if you eat off that tree you're going to get the capability where you think you can look at something and tell if it's right or wrong good or evil this is the problem. People are determining something if it's good or evil or not based on what they see what they think what they feel their experiences and that ain't how you tell if something's good or evil. There is good and there is evil there is right and there's not right they're just it like truth and stuff that is not true it's not true because somebody says it's true whatever is true is true because it's true and when something is good it's good because it's good and if it's evil it's evil because it's evil. Okay can you look at every situation and be absolutely certain the right decision was made every time and all these situations there's a lot of them even after they make a decision people still don't know if it was the right decision people just don't have that capability and God said when you eat off that tree you're going to get that where you think you can look at something and tell that it's right or wrong good or evil and he said that'll kill you and he said when you're doing this it's the same as being dead as far as he's concerned.

I see something in here that may not be a parent remember how we talked about being under the system. You know when people are under the you know you're in you're trapped in this system and you feel there's no Escape there's no way out there's and the system is not set up so that you could say I'm going to work hard and you work hard and you make it and you get out from under the system. The system is not designed for you to work and get out from under it it's designed for you no matter how much and how hard you keep working the more you gain in the more you achieve the more the system burdens you. So as hard as you work it's still the system is still enough to keep your work from getting you out from under it's designed like that. So this pressure from the system and these things come at you you know like when you're starting to make it things come at you and things happen in order to like pull the rug out from under you or impede you or hind or whatever it is if you ever noticed when we were under the system way way back when it was an impossible situation. You know when when the go around through towards the end of the week you always know well Friday's coming in this payday but that only lasts for so many days but there was no thing you're looking such and such is coming and we're going to be done with this there was nothing like that. You know the car the washing machine the water heater the roof is leaking the heaters broken all of these things will happen until your your flustered. Right and it causes you to be to be different in your thinking. You become flustered and fearful and frustrated and you begin to want to give up. You want to lay down and go to sleep or die or something or take drugs and pass yourself out in the corner or whatever okay it makes you want to do that. Guess what the world is here the cosmos it's this thing called Cosmos it's an orderly arrangement that is decoration by implication the world in a narrow sense including its inhabitants literally figuratively and morally. The stuff on the earth it's like basically it's really a load of crap. But I think if you have the word and you have this covering in case you can't do what the word says or don't or won't it's covered wouldn't that kind of enable you to kind of feel content? But now we're not in that now we have enough. Which is contented or content sufficient for oneself strong enough or processing enough to need no Aid or support, That means you're when you're processing something you're getting a result you know you're working or doing whatever you're getting the result back you have enough to take care of yourself and you don't need anybody to Aid or support you because your processing on your own and it means you're independent of external circumstances. Okay remember God's will there are several words for it and there's two of them one is the Thelema word and one is the Boule Word. The Thelema word is that God is not willing that any should perish but all would come to repentance has anybody perished since he said that so it's just a thing like I wish you I it's like with our sons you know you say I wish you would do this and yet they have their own life and they going to do that and you know it's going to be less good than if they did what you wish but okay God has that will. But now we have unfailing strength every obstacle that comes we just go oh and we find a way to deal with it they're unpleasant they're uncomfortable they're annoying they are frustrating but what do we do whatever it is we take care of it .

The characteristics of a man who is not swerved from his deliberate purpose to and his loyalty to faith and piety by even the greatest trials and suffering. And its patiently and steadfastly waiting, sustaining, perseverance, that means yeah you're waiting but you're not being changed or altered by whatever it is the time that you're waiting. And that's to stay under or behind or remain figuratively to undergo that is to Bear trials and have fortitude and perseverance and to endure and take patiently and remain and abide and not be reseed or Fleet. And it says to persevere under misfortunes and trials to hold fast to one's Faith to endure and bear bravely and calmly ill treatments.  I mean you can do a lot of stuff for so long and then you start getting tired and warm and worn down and right so he's telling them to endure bravely this stuff. Right to be to be kept and it's to continue to be and not perish to last and endure and it's in reference to a state or condition it's used as to remain in one condition and not become another or different. And the whole deal of all the stuff that happens regardless of the situation knows it or not it's to try to get you to not be so convinced. To take care for provide for to take up or carry away in order to care for and Preserve. When I look at these things I see these meanings and I put these things together. Of a thing which went on formally whereas now a different state of things exists or has begun to exist so that means he's gone but he's coming back right. Whatever you want to call this thing he's doing it's sort of changing a little, remember he laid out all those points of evidence and they made these closing statements and now what he's doing it's like he's laying out kind of what they're supposed to take from the closing argument. It's a age it could be like perpetuity or eternity and to those of us who are here it's like an eternity.

I was... I don't want to say I was led I was I just felt like I should do Timothy because it's encouragement to me because who knows I might not even supposed to be in here doing this. The spirit makes it clear that as time goes by some are going to give up on the faith and chase after demonic Illusions put forth by professional Liars these Liars have lied so well and for so long that they have lost their capacity for truth. Okay now that's when we looked it up before it said eventually you know when you get up remember you get a group of people together and everything is all fine but eventually somebody gets into some dumb thing and all of a sudden it takes Root, Well it either it either corrupts everybody or it causes a division. If you put the brethren in remembrance of these things you shall be a good minister of Yeshua the Messiah nourished up in words of faith and a good Doctrine where in to thou has attained I'm putting in remembrance of these things so that means I'm a good yes a good Minister it made it clear to me that it's okay for me to do it the way I'm doing it. Or there's lots of words that are you know built of other words and when they're built into another word that doesn't change the meaning right so when I look these words up and give you these roots you know sometimes I feel like well maybe I'm maybe I'm pushing too far beyond the meaning. If you do that you are a good minister if you get them to understand and be convinced and secure when I look at this I'm thinking put them in remembrance doesn't say that. He says it's basically he's telling this guy you got to convince these people and get them into this thing and get them to believe this and get them to be convinced right and and be trusting in this, Not put them in remembrance. You gotta get them in here, get them secured under this, Its like When you get people get secured like one of them witness people before the trial somebody's trying to kill the witness so they put them in a safe house and they secure them under that. They can be secured under this safety thing as long as you get them in there and secure them in there so where they're really convinced right and secure in being convinced that's more than put them in remembrance. Probably that's why I go through all this stuff and beat it to death and you'll just get irritated I keep saying the same thing so out of these things if you do them if you convince these people to be secure under these ideas you're a good minister, But you have to get to the point where you can be consciously choosing that and knowing there's a choice there some people don't know there's a choice and they and they get pulled into stuff by themselves by their emotions by their upbringing by the world around them. I believe that's what I'm trying to do in here so that makes me a good Minister now that good is that one of our two good words and it's the callus word, It's good properly beautiful but chiefly figuratively good literally or morally, That is valuable or virtuous for appearance or use and it's distinguished from G18 which is the other one which is intrinsically good, It means this the minute kind of Minister that God is saying I am not me okay, beautiful handsome excellent eminent Choice surpassing precious useful suitable commendable admirable beautiful to look at shapely magnificent good excellent in my nature and characteristics and therefore well adapted to my ends, Genuine approved precious. Remember I said if you do any wrong thing it's washed away into the sea is forgetfulness as far as east of the West and it might be Scarlet is washed as white as snow but if you do one good thing it's an eternal Memorial, Now I don't know where you can get a deal like that anywhere else okay at all this that's for me, It makes me feel real good even though sometimes I don't feel good but when I look at this and that's what God is saying about me even though I'm not anybody I'm just me sitting here telling you what these words mean. There's a trust that comes in here, I don't care what I see I've decided I'm going to trust him, like I don't care I don't want to say I don't care if I die but I don't care if I die this is still true right nothing changes that. Right and that's why when I do this, I relate in words and usually it's that systematic or set discourse and I read the meaning of each of them this persuaded convinced you know all those things because the more I say that I believe every time you hear that a different part of it goes into you.